May 2012
1 post
Sometimes
I wonder if I’ll ever get it right again.
March 2012
1 post
Missing
I’ve not done very well with updating lately. Aside from starting a new business, I’ve just been overwhelmed with life in general. I’m busier than I’ve ever been… but I’m enjoying where I’m headed! I’ve made a lot of changes to my life over the last several months. I’ve made good and bad decisions and am learning to deal with what...
January 2012
2 posts
debtor
if sin destroyed me, then so be it
if providence, then i could not see it
had it been ordained, surely i’d have felt it
had it been right
content in me and where i am
finally knowing this volatile man
finally knowing what i can
and what i might
you could easily float in despair
always mentioning this burden you bear
but it is still only you standing there
avoiding the light
...
December 2011
2 posts
Off to a Good Start
You’d think if there was the chance you’d have to deal with someone the rest of your life, you wouldn’t set a precedent of uncomfortable encounters. Today, I faced judgment from people whom I’ve never met, yet had to tolerate it because those people were important to someone for whom I care a great deal. I could give a rat’s ass about someone’s opinion of me....
November 2011
5 posts
difficulty
It’s hard to move forward when you cling to tiny pieces of your past.
Giving Thanks
Dirt roads and backwoods.
Black water swamps and tobacco fields.
My mean ass Mama.
Honest, caring, small-town folks.
Big cities and great opportunities.
The completeness of music.
The emptiness of art.
Falls and hurts.
The victories, here and there.
Pretty young things and sweet old souls.
Second, third, and fourth chances.
Friends and lovers and the confusing things in between.
And...
unfortunate
I’ve done a lot of things and made decisions over the past month that have been very difficult, but I feel they were the right thing to do. It sucks, though, when the right thing hurts those whom you love.
Better days ahead, I hope.
October 2011
19 posts
happiness
It makes a tremendous difference.
“I’m not sure my brothers would like you. You’re wearing a scarf and...”
– my date tonight.
“We must be willing to get rid of the life we’ve planned, so as to have the...”
– Joseph Campbell
“He that can have Patience, can have what he will.”
– Benjamin Franklin
sometimes
You just have to go after the things you want.
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mark my words
They always call when they’re picking up the pieces.
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peripheric:
oregon girl //someone still loves...
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Watch“It’s really nice to be here with you alone in the rain.”
“Yes, I like it a lot.”
“Let’s stay here a while and not be in a hurry to go anywhere else.”
September 2011
20 posts
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“I desire the things which will destroy me in the end.”
— Sylvia Plath”
– (via zoelulu)
muse.lover.friend.
That’s what I want.
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absence
It doesn’t always make the heart grow fonder.
basics
Love. Money. Health.
importance
Being significant is what matters most.
antiquity
I would have been a lonely, lonely man during the days of suitors competing for a woman’s hand. When I think for even an instant that I must compete with someone else I just throw my hands up. Not for fear of rejection or because I don’t think someone is worth pursuing, but I’d much rather have someone be as interested in me as I am in them and them just being straightforward...
Reminding Myself
Sometimes what you want and what you need aren’t the same things. Sometimes they are.
silence
silence like daggers tearing my flesh
thoughts throwing fierce blows crushing my bones
jealousy like plastic suffocating my every breath
and him, he sits smugly on the counter
emptiness even though you’re holding my hand
hurt because i know your mind before you speak
you telling me you can’t love me like i am
and him, waiting in the wings for your freedom
loneliness filling...
"love"
I’m pretty sure “love” is all about perception. People make up their idea about what they think love should be and then project it onto others. It’s all quite sickening, really.
churning
I’m at one of those points where I know a ton of things in my life are about to change. While I’m completely comfortable knowing things will change, my stomach is not so comfortable not knowing what those changes will be.
